I just got back from five days in Colorado visiting my family and suffering through an 11 mile run at altitude. Denver needs more air....seriously. It was a terrific visit, my mom is so much more mobile now and able to get around sometimes unassisted, I left this visit much more assured of her progress. It's difficult to see your parents struggle and you just want to help alleviate stress or pain, but I realize just by keeping my mom company does wonders! We threw her a surprise birthday party while I was out there and she was so overwhelmed and excited.....my mom is definitely the most positive person I know and this surgery has tried even her own patience.
I said to her at one point "LOOK! you're standing up by yourself," and it took her a minute and she was like "You're right!"...I tried to point out little things along the way so she could remind herself of the amazing progress she was making. Last time I was out there she had a difficult time moving even with a walker and now she's doing stairs, going out with friends and slowly coming back to her usual "social self."
I said to her, "I know you want to just go out there and walk....but, you need to give yourself credit for the things you ARE doing today and not the things that you CAN'T DO."..seems i'm good at giving advice but not very good at taking it myself. I had a mini tantrum last week about just not being able to finish full workouts and being completely bewildered that I seemingly have ALL this time during the day, but can't seem to get in a workout....due to a nap, or missed nap, or what not. I wouldn't change it for the world---really....but, I need to let go of my "type-A-will-not-miss-training-ever" personality. My priorities are very different now and I love my time with Soren, I just need to be more gentle on myself when it comes to being unable to fit in a training session.
I'm working on taking my own advice.
This'll be a short blog post....I did the St. Patty's Day 10K this morning and for me, I went in with just trying to "let it all fly," and not get so stuck on "worrying about running out of gas," and I am super super happy with how I did! Race report to follow soon....off to put my feet up!